I totally want to go to a convention or marathon meeting. Come on norcal. why cant we have one every month instead of every year. his years was amazing, but I only went for 1 day. Next year I’m dragging my friends down the day before and we’re getting a hotel room. I don’t want to miss a minute. 

I had a very unproductive day. i didn’t hit any meetings. did set up a time for me to see a friend who has almost 5 years clean. i haven’t seen her since the convention. best part of my day was talking to my sister. she told me that i sounded better. she told me that she could even picture me without the sickly pale/sunken in face of my active addiction. I miss her. too bad she lives on the east coast. anyway…

I need to get more active in my own recovery. lately i’ve been making excuses for not going to meetings. I’ve been sleeping way too much. The depression is back and taking hold. I missed therapy for the first time in 3 months today. I just totally spaced on it. I need to get back to work. I can’t wait until i see my sponsor.